Tag: blog
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No wasted efforts
I was utterly disappointed. I did not have enough time to go through everything I had prepared. I put a lot of effort into some things that were not even used. I didn’t want to go home and sulk about it. So I came home, put my heavy bag down and headed out to the…
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Coffee break
I have a cup of coffee each morning. Usually just one. Probably about a double-shot espresso equivalent. But I quit for the last two weeks. Well, almost. I defaulted maybe two times during that period. I do this occasionally to reset. Over time, I had become desensitised to caffeine, so I no longer got as…
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Hi, don’t look at me
I suppose I could speak more clearly and less ambiguously. But doing the opposite of that is more than just a speaking habit to me. It’s my way of life, almost. Deflecting. Avoiding. Hiding. I guess I am still a little scared of being known. That’s okay, I suppose.
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neurosis and writing
I’m reading some of the things I wrote when I was heartbroken and distressed, and oh my, why are they so much better than the things I write when I’m feeling okay? It’s funny and ironic. I have been going to the art gallery a lot these days. I’ve been enjoying it so much lately…
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I hesitate
I don’t know if I am wanting to do this for myself or for you. I so want it to be for you, but I just cannot be sure that my motivations aren’t selfish or futile. I can’t trust myself. So I hesitate. I go back and forth. So many times, I set out to…
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All of a Sudden (2026)
공식 줄거리 Two scholars exchange letters about chance and risk. As the philosopher falls ill, their academic correspondence evolves into intimate discussions about mortality and a deeper connection forms between them. 느낀점 Mari와 Marie-lou 는 아예 다른 두 사람 같으나 사실은 같은 사람이었던 것 같다. 그들의 이름이 말해 주듯. Marie-lou는 Mari의 연극을 보고 깊은 감명을…
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On a night I planned to flee
No matter how hard I try, no matter how much I fool myself, I seem to be incapable of coming to You without being a mercenary. Even when I grasp the wonderful Truth and see its blinding and magnificent glory, it flees me like a lightning and eludes me. Even as I realise that You…
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I can’t. But you can
I can’t do any of those things unless You help me. I am absolutely wretched and afflicted. But I do also know this. I do know that You will help me. So when it matters the most, I will be able to see it through. So I can, and I will, even though everything I…
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Change of mind?
I read something I wrote last year. It went something like ‘ I can rely on my desires to motivate me’. I don’t think I have that view anymore. My desires are transient. And sometimes not even ‘good’, in that it might not be the best option for me. I shall rely on something reliable.…
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당신의 양들
나는 여름만 되면 당신을 떠나고 싶다고 하소연하는 글이나 쓰고 있지만, 당신은 참 신실하십니다. 당신의 사랑하는 성도들이 제게 힘이 됩니다. 그들이 주님을 사랑해서, 주님을 알아서, 취하는 태도와 행동들이 저에게 용기를 줍니다. 나를 놓지 마소서. 내가 당신을 더 깊게 알게하시고, 당신에게 더 가까이 있게 하소서.
