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Hi, don’t look at me
I suppose I could speak more clearly and less ambiguously. But doing the opposite of that is more than just a speaking habit to me. It’s my way of life, almost. Deflecting. Avoiding. Hiding. I guess I am still a little scared of being known. That’s okay, I suppose.
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neurosis and writing
I’m reading some of the things I wrote when I was heartbroken and distressed, and oh my, why are they so much better than the things I write when I’m feeling okay? It’s funny and ironic. I have been going to the art gallery a lot these days. I’ve been enjoying it so much lately…
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I hesitate
I don’t know if I am wanting to do this for myself or for you. I so want it to be for you, but I just cannot be sure that my motivations aren’t selfish or futile. I can’t trust myself. So I hesitate. I go back and forth. So many times, I set out to…
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All of a Sudden (2026)
공식 줄거리 Two scholars exchange letters about chance and risk. As the philosopher falls ill, their academic correspondence evolves into intimate discussions about mortality and a deeper connection forms between them. 느낀점 Mari와 Marie-lou 는 아예 다른 두 사람 같으나 사실은 같은 사람이었던 것 같다. 그들의 이름이 말해 주듯. Marie-lou는 Mari의 연극을 보고 깊은 감명을…
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On a night I planned to flee
No matter how hard I try, no matter how much I fool myself, I seem to be incapable of coming to You without being a mercenary. Even when I grasp the wonderful Truth and see its blinding and magnificent glory, it flees me like a lightning and eludes me. Even as I realise that You…
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I can’t. But you can
I can’t do any of those things unless You help me. I am absolutely wretched and afflicted. But I do also know this. I do know that You will help me. So when it matters the most, I will be able to see it through. So I can, and I will, even though everything I…
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Change of mind?
I read something I wrote last year. It went something like ‘ I can rely on my desires to motivate me’. I don’t think I have that view anymore. My desires are transient. And sometimes not even ‘good’, in that it might not be the best option for me. I shall rely on something reliable.…
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여름은 내게 위험한 계절
저는 여름만 되면 당신을 떠나고 싶어요. 풍성해지는 초록색 수풀들처럼 제 마음에도 여러가지것들이 꿈틀거리며 스멀스멀 올라오거든요. 점점 따듯해지는 공기를 맞딱드릴때 마다 같은 온도의 공기 마시며 보냈던 여름밤들의 추억들, 얼굴들, 설레임들이 연기처럼 떠올라요. 꽁꽁 얼어붙은 마음이 시려워서 주님께 가까이 다가 갔는데 날이 따듯해지니 살아 움직이는 제 마음대로 살고 싶어져요.. 보고싶으면 보고싶다 말하고, 만나고 싶으면 만나고…그러고 싶은데 어쩌죠?…
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In passing
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‘물의 유희’
더 이상 좋다고 해서 가지려는 자세를 취하지 않는다. 적당한 거리에서 바라보는 것도 커다란 즐거움. 내가 원하는 것을 가지는 게 이롭지만은 않을 때가 있다. 마음 같으면 단번에 달려가, 그 탐나고 아름다운 비수를 내 심장에 스스로 꽂아버리겠지만, 이젠 이 세상의 모든 빛나고 황홀한 것들보다 목숨을 바칠 수 있는 더 소중한 이유가 내 마음에 자리 잡아 꿈틀거리고 있으니……
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