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영원한것을 꿈꾸는 밤
세상의 모든 반짝이는 것들과 높고 세련된 건물과 도시들 화려하고 멋지고 매력적인 사람들 눈에 다 담지 못 할 아름답고 황홀한 풍경들 그 화려함의 무게에 으스러지지 않았으면 그 아름다움의 손짓에 미혹되지 않았으면 이 험궂은 세상의 풍조에 휩쓸리지 않았으면 내 손과 발과 눈이 그리고 무엇보다 내 마음이 이 세상을 잠시 지나 갈 때에도 오직 한 곳 만을 향해있기를…
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To my soul
How you have forgotten so easily the light that was lavished on to you. How is it that you cease to acknowledge the sacred promise whose soil on which you grew. – Why do you ignore the true vine by trying to grow apart from the divine How dare you say you know when you…
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No wasted efforts
I was utterly disappointed. I did not have enough time to go through everything I had prepared. I put a lot of effort into some things that were not even used. I didn’t want to go home and sulk about it. So I came home, put my heavy bag down and headed out to the…
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cinema at night
Apparently, it is the 10-year anniversary of La La Land this year. I can’t believe it. I remember watching it in uni (when I say uni, it always means pharmacy school, because that’s the real uni to me, the one you went to for the first time) in 2017 when I was a third-year. I…
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Coffee break
I have a cup of coffee each morning. Usually just one. Probably about a double-shot espresso equivalent. But I quit for the last two weeks. Well, almost. I defaulted maybe two times during that period. I do this occasionally to reset. Over time, I had become desensitised to caffeine, so I no longer got as…
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Hi, don’t look at me
I suppose I could speak more clearly and less ambiguously. But doing the opposite of that is more than just a speaking habit to me. It’s my way of life, almost. Deflecting. Avoiding. Hiding. I guess I am still a little scared of being known. That’s okay, I suppose.
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neurosis and writing
I’m reading some of the things I wrote when I was heartbroken and distressed, and oh my, why are they so much better than the things I write when I’m feeling okay? It’s funny and ironic. I have been going to the art gallery a lot these days. I’ve been enjoying it so much lately…
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I hesitate
I don’t know if I am wanting to do this for myself or for you. I so want it to be for you, but I just cannot be sure that my motivations aren’t selfish or futile. I can’t trust myself. So I hesitate. I go back and forth. So many times, I set out to…
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All of a Sudden (2026)
공식 줄거리 Two scholars exchange letters about chance and risk. As the philosopher falls ill, their academic correspondence evolves into intimate discussions about mortality and a deeper connection forms between them. 느낀점 Mari와 Marie-lou 는 아예 다른 두 사람 같으나 사실은 같은 사람이었던 것 같다. 그들의 이름이 말해 주듯. Marie-lou는 Mari의 연극을 보고 깊은 감명을…
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Why Lord?
Why do you ask the impossible of mortal beings, Lord? You know we are but dust, grass that is here and in the next, withers. You turn and look straight at me as you did your servant Peter. I’m lost for words, both at my own heart’s conduct and Yours. Why would you, Lord? I…
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On a night I planned to flee
No matter how hard I try, no matter how much I fool myself, I seem to be incapable of coming to You without being a mercenary. Even when I grasp the wonderful Truth and see its blinding and magnificent glory, it flees me like a lightning and eludes me. Even as I realise that You…
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I can’t. But you can
I can’t do any of those things unless You help me. I am absolutely wretched and afflicted. But I do also know this. I do know that You will help me. So when it matters the most, I will be able to see it through. So I can, and I will, even though everything I…
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