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I don’t know everything and I can’t know everything but I don’t have to know everything to make the right decisions

The heart is so deceptive. Sometimes the idea of something is more appealing to us than its actualisation. Or we might even be very aware of the fact that we don’t want the idea which entertains us to happen in real life.

Other times, the idea of another thing appears unattractive in our imagination but when the subject of the idea transpires in real life, we are pleasantly surprised to find that it is more agreeable than we initially had thought.

Where I lack knowledge and insight, which I inevitably do lack, I ask God for more wisdom. But sometimes I find that God doesn’t give me the kind of wisdom that I asked for but rather challenges me to exercise my faith instead. To trust in him through the valley of the unknown.

Other times, such wisdom plays a crucial role in how events turn out. 

But in the end, I always find that whatever I may have planned in my heart, only God’s plan prevails.

I guess the blissful spot is where what I desire and plan in my heart is that of God’s also.  

I don’t claim to be in that sweet spot all the time. I think maybe sometimes yes, sometimes no.

I don’t care as much as I used to about what I do and how things turn out for me.  I am just hungry. I yearn for knowledge. A knowledge that matters. I thirst. 

I just pray that when it comes to what matters, I make the right decisions. And the tears I shed for You in the course of it, will be ones of joy I assure You.