It is joy

I love life in these moments. 

To give kindness feels way better than receiving kindness although the latter is also a great thing. He said it in Acts 20:35.

To see His word become actualised in my clumsy life is joy. Joy is when I am by grace finally liberated from my temporary blindness and to be unveiled to witness the truthfulness of His words.

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I just really wanted to know what joy actually is, as much as I was confused with the word, the meaning of which has been polluted in its usage in the world by being thrown around here and there to mean something like pleasure and ecstasy. I wanted to experience joy and know it the way You meant it.

And You being faithful and patient didn’t forget my prayer. You waited until I was mature enough in the areas necessary to understand your answer. This is Joy. You didn’t have to explain it word for word. When the specific chords were strung in the right moment, joy came and I knew indeed, it was joy.

All those other things I had to go through that I now see were necessary to come to an understanding of this were certainly not fun but if you say without them I would not have known this joy at all, then Lord I wanna say I’m more than happy to have gone through it although it was really painful.

Realising the truthfulness of your Word is joy. Realising your faithfulness is joy and joyful tears.

It’s been 5 years since that dazzling night in Akaroa and yet another one like it tonight. I see how good this is going to be. I see now.