Tag: 일기
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언젠가 본 당신의 허망한 눈빛. 그 텅 빈 눈 빛에 위로를 받았어요. 단색 정장을 입고 터벅 터벅 걸어가던 당신, 왠지 모르게 쓸쓸해 보였어요. 가볍지만, 어딘가 모르게 주저하는 발걸음. 당신이 좋아하는 영화를 보면서 당신이 떠올랐어요. 차가웠나요 지난 세월? 마음 아픈날도 많았죠? 그런데 당신은 아름다움에 경탄하고, 연민을 느낄 수 있는 멋지고 똑똑한 사람이니까, 아픈만큼 깊은 기쁨도 많았을…
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즐거움 뒤
즐거운 시간을 보낸 뒤 느껴지는 공허함. 찰나의 순간, 앞사람의 눈에서 영원이 보였기 때문이라. 그 영원의 여운이 공허함으로 다가온다. 지금은 아니지만 언젠가 그 영원 속에 나도 반드시 있으리.
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A good life?
A good life is one where memories of great moments outweigh the painful memories. Pain is inevitable but it is not inevitable that everyday is painful. I love life. I complain about how hard it is but I do love it in truth. I complain about how people are cruel but I do love them…
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by faith, not sight
It is incredibly difficult to operate on faith. It is hard to live by faith not by sight. My entire life was managed by and built on what can be seen and measured; my abilities, the outcomes of my actions, the data which supports one course of action over another etc. My motivation and discipline…
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Sound of life
I live in an apartment in the city. I know a lot of people and families live in the apartment but it’s curious how I don’t run into people that often in the corridors. For the most part, the walk from my place to the elevator is a very quiet and dull one. I have…
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그런 날
오늘은 그런날 이에요. 내가 얼마나 참고 포기하고 있는지 생색 내고 싶은 날이랄까? 당신은 나를 위해 목숨까지 포기했지만, 난 고작 이런것들에 힘들었다고 투정해요. 오늘 하루 그랬어요. 충분히 하고 싶었고, 그리고 할 수 있었는데, 안하기로 한 것들이 막 생각나는거 있죠. 아쉽기도 하고, 손해 보는것 같기도 하고. 이것도 지나면 다 잘 했다고 생각하겠죠. 근데 투정부리고 싶네요 오늘은.
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If you love them,
When she spoke about what happened, I felt obliged to listen though it breaks my heart every time. That is the burden that I have to bear. My animal brain would rather avoid pain at all costs but to listen to her story and feel its pain was my duty and a way to unburden…
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A little bit of you
Do you ever miss a wonderful person you have never known? Then you remember seeing them time to time behind different faces. Sometimes your heart jolts of excitement, at other times it aches. Either way you are in awe. But even sunlight costs you. Anything brilliant and amazing has a price.
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How about a compliment?
Last year on a wet and cold winter evening at a wine bar, a waitress told me I was “very pretty”. Putting aside whether I am indeed “very pretty” under objective beauty standards, and the fact that it seems now to be a taboo to comment on one’s appearances even if in a positive light,…
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A rainy Tuesday afternoon
I carry my late grandad’s umbrella. It’s not the best umbrella and it’s a bit worn out, but I still like it. I don’t think he used it much—perhaps not even at all. He was a farmer, you see, in rural South Korea. A man of charisma and authority, not the kind to use an…
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