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Day 12
Damn. You know it was really nice of you to message me but I kind of wish you didn’t. I mean I was real stoked but it’s really bothering me now because you’re in my head and it’s super distracting.
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Day 11
I really like it when you kind of pick yourself up on a rotten day and do something wholesome. You hate the cold and the lack of sun. You know you get a bit blue when it’s cold and cloudy. But I love that you do small things for yourself on those days because you…
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Day 10
자연스러움. 자연스러움에 대해서 배우고 싶다. 자연스러움을 소유 하고 싶다. 자연스러운 사람 곁에 있을때 얼마나 편안하고 즐거운지. 자연스러움은 어디서 나오는 걸까? 어떤 마음가짐에서 나오는걸까?
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Day 9
1 You are just a really wonderful person who often gets caught up in existential loneliness. You think that it’s a flaw, but it’s not your fault that it happens to you. It just happens, and that is just a fact. You enjoy observing people, though; sometimes, it’s not a voluntary choice. You notice small…
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Day 7: Fire alarm at 3 am
Last night, the power in the entire apartment went off. As of right now, It’s been more than 24 hours, and they are still working on getting it back on. I wrote the following paragraphs at 3 am yesterday as I waited outside the building along with other sleepy residents for the firemen to arrive…
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Day 6: Seoul, and then an island. And then?
I’m missing Seoul. Especially that dreamy, hazy summer of ’22 in the city. What is it about Seoul precisely that I miss? I don’t know. I think it kind of stirred up my identity. It questioned it. Each time I visited, the contrast between the edges of myself and the rest of the city seems…
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Day 5
I saw how at ease and uninhibited J was. I was quite wrong about him. It was delightful. I wish I could do the same. I did a reasonable amount of work today. That word “reasonable” is so battered in law school that now it feels weird using it in a normal context. Withdrawal. Just…
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Day 4
A glance and a half. Was it all for nothing? Don’t you know that everything I write or say is directed at you even if you never read what I write or hear what I say? I pity myself sometimes. For the condition I put myself under. I want to stop, I’m going to stop.…
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Day 3
I feel so sensitive to time passing lately. Like an exposed nerve ending, at every stimuli, I become hyper-aware of the passage of time. I sometimes think I’m the only one that loves. I wish that’s not true. I wish people would know how much I love them. I wish they love me back. But…
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Day 2
I guess I’m not a machine. I can’t just program myself to do things at certain times. You can’t just autopilot through your entire life. I definitely tried that. How harsh of me! I am so human (surprise, surprise). I get discouraged, I get jealous. I need pep talk, I need attention and tenderness from…
