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  • Day 2: The Beauty is in the Opportunity Cost

    Day 2: The Beauty is in the Opportunity Cost

    The first time I came across the idea of opportunity cost was in High School. I was year 11, doing NCEA (haven’t wrote this word NCEA nor said in years!) I took as many subjects as I can in the sciences and maths. One of them was of course the still fascinating subject of economics!…

  • Day 1: So many mixed feelings, is this life?

    Day 1: So many mixed feelings, is this life?

    Alright. I’m embarking on a writing challenge for 30 days, inspired by my dear friend S. As someone who writes (as some one who writes? am I even ‘someone who writes’? uh I don’t think so..) in bursts of energy, spontaneously, I believe this will be indeed what it is called, a challenge. But! I’m…

  • ‘Forty Dollars for a book is too expensive!’

    ‘Forty Dollars for a book is too expensive!’

    I kept telling myself ‘Nah, forty dollars for a book is too expensive’.  I find myself visiting Unity Books over on High St again and again mainly for one particular book as of lately. It’s so peaceful when I walk in there, a shelter from the bustling streets, annoyed commuters, people grabbing a bite to…

  • Sometimes..

    Sometimes..

    Diary excerpt: I’ll just have to accept that there will be a bit of suffering. And hopefully if God is willing, for only a short time. “Sometimes you just have to suffer” – The Fablemans 2022

  • 내 마음

    내 마음

    내 마음, 꺼지지 않는 불 밤이나 낮이나 타고 있는 내 마음 시커멓게 타서 잿더미가 되는게 나을까 뜨겁고, 그래서 따가운 내 마음.

  • It is joy

    It is joy

    I love life in these moments.  To give kindness feels way better than receiving kindness although the latter is also a great thing. He said it in Acts 20:35. To see His word become actualised in my clumsy life is joy. Joy is when I am by grace finally liberated from my temporary blindness and…

  • A letter,

    I haven’t seen you for over 4 years, my dear friend. We used to study together, we were younger and motivated. We studied really hard, I know you did and we shared a camaraderie in doing that.I always thought of you like a brother. Comfortable and fun to be around. We’ve both gone through a…

  • 가브리엘 그냥 스쳐가면 안되니?

    하루아침에 나의 갈망들이 이뤄지는 걸 상상하기도 하지만, 현실은 그렇지 않다는 걸 안다. 현실은 계단 하나하나 오르듯 올라간다. 느리고, 힘들고, 끝이 없을 것 같고, 멈춰서기도 하고 돌아가기도 한다. 예전에 나 자신한테 말한 적이 있다. 필요하다면 기꺼이 기어서라도 갈 거라고. 어딜 간다는 건지 그때도 지금도 정확하게는 말 못 한다. 장소가 아니기 때문이다. 하지만 확실하다. 앞으로만 가면 나는…

  • 어른이 뭐에요

    자신의 욕망과 한계와 결점들을 똑바로 쳐다보고 눈길을 돌리지 않아야 한다. 뚫어져라 응시하고 마주해야 고칠 수 있다. 그런데도 고쳐지지 않는 것들이 있다면 그것과 함께 살아가는 법을 배워야한다. 감당해내는 방법을 터득해야한다. 그리고 절대 그런것들이 없는 척 하면 안된다. 어떤 척이라도 하면 안된다. 헛되고 거짓된 방패 뒤에 숨어서도 안된다. 그건 도망치는거니까. 고군분투를 통해 끝내 그것을 멋스럽게 걸치고 가벼운…

  • Sleepless nights under the moonlight

    So many hours and days wasted worrying, doubting, fighting resenting, labouring for things that don’t matter, and mindlessly scrolling and consuming meaningless media to avoid life and seek comfort which I never get from those things. ‘I should have loved more’. The real gems of life are simple and a few. I am declaring war…